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Is God in the Fire?

April 12, 2025 Nancy Carroll

Looks like the Eye of Mordor. Do you see the falling star above the flame?

Bill and I experienced our first wildfire in November.
 
We never dreamed it would be on our property.

Three lights: Fire, sunset, porch light

With dear out-of-town friends visiting, we decided to spend a Monday night at our country cottage on Whisper Woods Lake. It’s only 35 minutes from our house but a world away from the city. They planned to make homemade pasta. We were excited. As we neared our place at about 4:30 p.m., I wondered why sunset was so early as I saw a smoky orange haze in the sky

My first thought was who strung white Christmas lights through the woods across from our small lake? Did someone pour a line of gasoline and light it? It took a minute to realize this was a real forest fire.
 
Grabbing buckets, we ran towards it. We tried dousing the flames with lake water. That was like trying to control an anthill by stomping on it. We saw the fire advancing in lines and patches of flames throughout the woods.
 
We called 911 and kenneled our dogs.
 
Our property is so rural I had to drive to the main county road (dodging abandoned mobile homes) so I could open the gate, wait for the volunteer fire department, flag them down, and lead them to the fire. The fire engine couldn’t make it down our narrow dirt access road so the chief followed me in his pickup truck. When he saw the extent of the fire, he realized it wasn’t just some suburban woman overreacting. Click here to see the video Paul Valerio took. 
 
The sheriff came and flew a huge drone over the woods and estimated the fire was affecting about 50 acres on three different properties. Volunteer fire fighters with water backpacks couldn’t begin to contain it. They called in the Wildfire Unit of the Alabama Forestry Commission. By then it was dark. How they got the huge bulldozer down to our property I’ll never know. They started plowing through the woods to create a firebreak.

As the sun set, the woods glowed red and reflected in the water.  It was awesome, awful, beautiful, and eerie all at the same time.  It was like a scene from The Lord of the Rings with the red eye of Mordor throbbing right there in Vincent, Alabama.

All I could do was stay out of the way, take photos, and pray.
 
O God, please don’t let anyone be hurt. The firefighters with their water packs, shovels, and axes. Neighbors whizzing around on four-wheelers in the dark. Our friends watering the ground around our cottage.
 
O God, spare our cottage and our neighbor’s structures. Please don’t let the fire reach the gas line that runs close to our property (imagining a cinema-worthy BOOM!)
 
O Lord, bring rain. Most of the state of Alabama was in a month-long drought, tinder dry, and under fire bans. (They think the fire started from a neighbor’s weekend campfire.)
 
After they determined the bulldozer stopped the fire from advancing, the fire chief felt it was safe to let the rest of the fire die out as it reached the water’s edge. Everyone left sooty and tired, but unharmed and satisfied. We celebrated with a very late dinner, pondering what just happened.
 
 We woke the next morning to the smell of lingering smoke and the sound of gentle rain, although there had been only a 30 percent chance of precipitation. Our friends left to return to Georgia. Bill and I tramped through the blackened woods seeing flaming potholes where the fatwood resin in the tree stumps kept burning. It felt like another scene from The Lord of Rings with columns of smoke in a blackened landscape rising around us. Even two weeks later, trees continued to smoke and burn internally.

To the world, it might have looked like an effective controlled burn. But I knew God controlled that fire.
 
It is ironic that our vision for our Whisper Woods Lake property is based on 1 Kings 19. The prophet Elijah, weary and confused after battling the evil Queen Jezebel, crawls under a broom tree to sleep, eat, whine, and try to hear from God. After he rested, this is what he heard:
 
“Go, stand on the mountain at attention before God. God will pass by. A hurricane wind ripped through the mountains and shattered the rocks before God, but God wasn’t to be found in the wind; after the wind an earthquake, but God wasn’t in the earthquake; and after the earthquake fire, but God wasn’t in the fire; and after the fire a gentle and quiet whisper.” 1 Kings 19:11-12 MSG
 
What whisper did I hear from God after the fire?
 
I had been in a prayer drought for many months. What I had been believing was, “God works but maybe not for me.” I could see others whose prayers were answered but I was waiting and running low on faith, feeling alone and confused.
 
I was like whiny Elijah.  Crawling under the broom tree, wondering if I was the last one left on God’s team or if God had forgotten me.
 
In this spiritual as well as real 911 moment, I prayed and asked others to pray. And they did, believing for me. On the morning after the fire, I could sense God’s whisper as I heard the gentle rain, rain I had convinced myself by the weather app wouldn’t come.
 
I couldn’t get around God’s specific answers to our prayers:
 
I prayed no one would get hurt. No one was hurt.
 
I prayed that no structures would be harmed. The fire was contained to undeveloped land.
 
I prayed for rain. God sent the rain despite the meteorologists’ calculations.
 
He answered in ways I didn’t “think” of praying.
 
The fire chief pointed out that after weeks of low humidity, it was at 100 percent humidity that evening which kept the fire from leaping up into the crown of the trees.
 
We rarely go to our cottage on a Monday afternoon in November. We arrived “right on time” to get help. If we hadn’t, who knows how long it would have been until someone discovered the fire. 
 
Our neighbors came and helped us. I had been in despair over the huge divide in our nation in the weeks before the election. But in this emergency, there was no Red or Blue. There were just neighbors helping neighbors, asking for nothing in return.
 
Like with Elijah, God whispered that he was there in my confusion, isolation, and weariness. He heard and answered my prayers right on time. I was humbled by his grace and power to his unbelieving daughter.
 
In early January we saw green sprouts in the still-black ash along the trail.

Photo by Bill Carroll

It reminded me of Romans 15:13 in the Message:
 
Oh! May the God of green hope fill you up with joy, fill you up with peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the life-giving energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim over with hope!
 
He answered beyond my requests.
 
He was in the fire.
 
He was the whisper after the fire.
 
He is the God of green hope.
 
In my drought of unbelief, he whispered that I am not alone. He is with me. And he sent his reinforcements. 

Thank you to all who prayed and all who helped: Vincent Volunteer Fire Department, Harpersville Fire Department, Shelby County Sheriff’s Department, Alabama Forestry Commission Wildfire Unit, our Vincent neighbors, and our friends Paul Valerio and Elizabeth and Connor Butz who helped douse the fire and fed us pasta and left with good stories.
 

In Broomtree Ministry, Community, Confessions, Courage, Scripture, Soul Care, Story, Uncategorized Tags fire, Vincent AL, Elijah, Whisper Woods Laek, nancy carroll, nancywcarroll
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Ruminating on Ruminating

May 29, 2024 Nancy Carroll

I learned a new word. 

Perseverate. 
 
To repeat something insistently or redundantly. To get stuck, to ruminate, to loop back over and over. And over.
 
As in, “My 91-year-old mother perseverated.” 
 
My mom passed away a year ago. But I’m still haunted by echoes of her three looping ruminations. And my robotic responses. 
 
“I’m going blind.” 
 
“I’m so sorry you have blurry vision, Mom. But all your eye sub-specialists have told us you have one healthy eye and you’re not going blind. No matter what, we will take care of you.”
 
“I guess I’ll eat that and get fat. I used to watch my weight, but I just don’t care anymore.”
 
“Mom, remember the doctor ordered you to gain weight because you were way too thin and it was bad for your health and brain. You’re still so tiny but I’m glad you’re healthier.”
 
“It is hell getting old. Why doesn’t God just take me now?”
 
“I’m sorry, Mom. I know it’s hard, but we’re glad you’re here with us.”
 
It’s like a broken record in an alternate universe. When you say this, I say this. 
 
Over and over and over again. 

Those perseverations crushed me. There was nothing I could do to help her. 
 
It makes me wonder what I will perseverate about in a few years. 
 
It’s in my DNA. I too deal with doubts, cynicism, negative self-image, and fears for my health, family, and aging. My unfiltered ruminations will be filled with apologies and worries. 
 
“I am so sorry for taking all your time and causing you all this trouble.”
“Are you okay? Have I made you angry?”
“How are my kids? Are they safe?”
 
I had lots of time to observe the different personalities in Mom's retirement village. Everybody has customized ruts. I’m trying to re-groove my brain now so when it inevitably falls into ruts, they will be these: 
 
Gratitude 
To rearrange my DNA of gloom and doom, I keep a daily gratitude journal and snap iPhone photos of small happies. I try to express thanks in concrete ways to people around me. I say “I love you” whenever I can (a tiny bit less enthusiastically than Buddy the Elf). I picture myself in the nursing home with the staff saying, “Watch out, here comes the hugger.”
 
Wonder 
I fear bitterness more than blindness. Even as my eyesight fails, I want to live in wonder. To pay attention, clap at all the small, beautiful details in creation, and embed the truth of God’s steadfast love deep in my soul. as I face the unavoidable suffering, The nursing home staff will roll their eyes and point at me, “There’s that crazy lady clapping at a caterpillar again.” 
 
Compassionate Curiosity
I want to know people’s stories, not to be intrusive, but to understand and connect. I want to keep asking “after them,” and find ways to affirm them. The folks caring for me will be disappointed if I don’t ask, “How can I pray for you?” 
 
JESUS
I want to end up like the joke about the Sunday School answer. It’s always Jesus. I have been around old saints who weep as they whisper the name of Jesus. O Lord, help me to love you more and more. 
 
Ruminating and perseverating about Jesus? That gives me hope as I age. Because each day it means I'm one day closer to home.
 
And I too will be saying, “O Lord, take me now!”
 
Many of you also care for aging parents or perseverating “loopers.” It’s hard. Maybe like me, it surfaces all sorts of fears of what it will be like when you reach that stage. May God be with you. 
 
If it’s inevitable that we will end up in a rut of rumination, what do you want to ruminate on?

In Community, Confessions, Courage, Story, Laughing at the Future, Uncategorized Tags Mary Jo Hoffman, Ruminations, nancywcarroll, Perseverate, aging parents, wonder, gratitude, compassionate curiosity, looping
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II Corinthians Study Now Available!

September 10, 2021 Nancy Carroll
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What is Real?

“What is real?” asked the Velveteen Rabbit. The Skin Horse said, “Real isn’t how you are made, it is a thing that happens when you are loved for a long, long time. Generally, by the time you are real most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are REAL you can’t be ugly except to those who don’t understand.
Once you are real you can’t become unreal again. It lasts for always.” 

Margery Williams, The Velveteen Rabbit 

“So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.”

II Corinthians 4:16-18 MSG

What Does it Mean to Be a “Real” Christian?

Pandemics. Politics, Social struggles. Global tragedies. These past years have felt unreal. But what has been most crazy making for me is the deep divisions in the Church. How can we find our way back to loving each other and our neighbors and seeking His Kingdom? I need reality checks: Scripture; honest, diverse community; prayer. I need to continually recalibrate back to the Christ revealed in Scripture.


Now Available!
Reality Christianity: A Study of II Corinthians

Radiating Christ in Our Cracked Lives


It's a perfect time to sink into II Corinthians. This epistle presents what "reality Christianity" is and how a "real" Christian lives, loves, and ministers. (P.S. It's hard and messy.) It is Paul's most personal letter to one of his most difficult churches. It reveals the paradox of living out the Christian faith.

Reality Christianity: A Study of II Corinthians / Radiating Christ in Our Cracked Lives is now available on Amazon. (If you would like bulk orders, contact me at nancy@nancywcarroll.com) 

Through this study in II Corinthians, I pray you will:

  • Know and love the real Christ, and relish and radiate Him.

  • Know and love the real “you,” and drop veils to reveal yourself to others.

  • Embrace the reality that “real” ministry is through Christ’s power in your brokenness and weakness.

How do we live in the tension of the “both/and” life Christ offers us? In this 13-week study, you will discover how God enters into your hardest realities. 

  • The Reality of Suffering/The Reality of Our Comforting God

  • The Reality of Failure/The Reality of Our Faithful God

  • The Reality of Our Inability/The Reality of Our Covenantal God

  • The Reality of Cracked Pots/The Reality of Our Radiating God

  • The Reality of Brokenness/The Reality of Our Reconciling God

  • The Reality of REALationships/The Reality of Our Redeeming God

  • The Reality of Reaping/The Reality of Our Enriching God

  • The Reality of Spiritual Warfare/The Reality of Our Powerful God

  • The Reality of Weakness/The Reality of Our Sufficient God

  • The Reality of “REALigion”/The Reality of Christ IN Us

Ephesians Study Also Available!

I'm thrilled with the different groups around the country studying Ephesians  God's Great Mystery Revealed: In Christ, In His Church.  It is available on Amazon or by contacting me at nancy@nancywcarroll.com. Here's some of the feedback on the study: 

"Nancy does such a great job of making the study very 'user friendly.' She has an amazing ability to communicate and teach that is applicable for all spiritual ages. Thoroughly enjoyed the Ephesians study and can’t wait for her other studies to be published!"

"This study was an answered prayer. I was looking to dive deeper in the word & WOW did this exceed my expectations. The prompts allowed for personal reflection & growth. It is a great reminder of who we are in Christ and how to live as a believer. Nancy has a wonderful gift for words and creating the image of how each of us fit into the bigger piece of God’s masterpiece. I thoroughly enjoyed it."

"A great tool to dig into Ephesians verse by verse. Wonderful morning quiet time; the questions relating to the Scriptures were relevant and applicable. Great for a discipleship group."

The Ephesians and II Corinthians studies are part of the 10-book  "Beholding-is-Becoming" series which connects people to the love of Christ through intimate, intelligent, and accessible Scripture studies using an integrated head/heart/hands rhythm with:

  • 10-minute daily devotional questions (and an “express” version for those overwhelmed by life)

  • Discovery sheets for deeper, personal connection with Scripture

  • Concise commentary

  • Guides for teachers and facilitators


In Bible Studies, Community, Nancy W Carroll, Scripture, Soul Care Tags Bible studies, 2 Corinthians, II Corinthians, Reality Check, Reality Christianity, Grace, Beholding is Becoming, Nancy Carroll, Nancy W Carroll, nancywcarroll.com
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Beauty Refresher: Jonathan Rogers Writer / Teacher / Encourager

September 9, 2021 Nancy Carroll

A Brilliant Writer, A Generous Guide

Jonathan Rogers is a rare combination: a great writer who is able to teach and encourage others. He curates and encourages a community of people who write (and some who still choke over calling themselves "writers!') at The Habit Membership. He teaches seminars, hosts podcasts, offers a free weekly writing newsletter (sign up here), and has a treasure-trove of writing exercises and grammar tips (for word nerds like me!) through the Habit Membership.

Jonathan is the author of the popular Wilderking Trilogy, and a spiritual biography of Flannery O’Connor, The Terrible Speed of Mercy. He is an active member of The Rabbit Room where many of his podcasts can be found. I met him a few years ago when he spoke at InSpero’s Art of Community discussion and led a writing seminar in Birmingham. I’ve been a fan ever since!

Link here to find out about his latest online six-week writing seminar on Writing with Anne of Green Gables which begins September 14.

In Beauty Refreshers, Community Tags Jonathan Rogers, beauty refresher, Writer, The Habit Membership, Rabbit Room, Nancy W Carroll, writing, author, Nancy Carroll
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